For a good year all I talked about was wanting natural hair. I talked myself into how beneficial it would be and spent any extra time I had looking at hair blogs. I talked my poor baby’s ear off about how I was tired of perms and flat, lifeless hair (he's the only one I felt I could really confide in). Ok so I did the BC. I’m natural now ,chemical-free, yadda yadda yadda … so y am I still sulking? Well people I have had long hair for as long as I can remember. Almost everybody I come in to contact with comments on how much they loved my hair (my old hair). And it’s not so much to make me feel bad or change my mind about going natural, they say it in a “matter of fact” tone. To be honest, I miss my hair so much (some could argue that that wasn't really my hair to begin with but w/e).

I really can’t stand having short hair. And no matter how many compliments I get I still can’t bring myself to like it. Now this is not to say that I want to revert back to perms or that I hate myself. Don’t go there. I’m saying that short Hair+ Me= NO GO. I wear hats and scarves every day. Now I will admit I’m privileged enough to have this luxury because I’m in school and don’t have to worry about being presentable unlike if I were in a corporate environment. This only reason this routine has gotten me by all winter the simple fact that no one is really going out. But as the sunshine approaches I can’t help but worry that I’ll miss out on everything if I don’t snap out of this slump. I read about how women miss their TWA’s and wish they would have appreciated it more….. that’s sweet and all but I’m not tryna hear it and I don’t apologize for it. I just want this crap to grow. It doesn’t have to be ridiculously long, but neck length unstretched would be nice. So I guess I’ll be patiently (or not so patiently ) waiting.