Love/hate….Or just hate?

For a good year all I talked about was wanting natural hair. I talked myself into how beneficial it would be and spent any extra time I had looking at hair blogs. I talked my poor baby’s ear off about how I was tired of perms and flat, lifeless hair (he's the only one I felt I could really confide in). Ok so I did the BC. I’m natural now ,chemical-free, yadda yadda yadda … so y am I still sulking? Well people I have had long hair for as long as I can remember. Almost everybody I come in to contact with comments on how much they loved my hair (my old hair). And it’s not so much to make me feel bad or change my mind about going natural, they say it in a “matter of fact” tone. To be honest, I miss my hair so much (some could argue that that wasn't really my hair to begin with but w/e).





I really can’t stand having short hair. And no matter how many compliments I get I still can’t bring myself to like it. Now this is not to say that I want to revert back to perms or that I hate myself. Don’t go there. I’m saying that short Hair+ Me= NO GO. I wear hats and scarves every day. Now I will admit I’m privileged enough to have this luxury because I’m in school and don’t have to worry about being presentable unlike if I were in a corporate environment. This only reason this routine has gotten me by all winter the simple fact that no one is really going out. But as the sunshine approaches I can’t help but worry that I’ll miss out on everything if I don’t snap out of this slump. I read about how women miss their TWA’s and wish they would have appreciated it more….. that’s sweet and all but I’m not tryna hear it and I don’t apologize for it. I just want this crap to grow. It doesn’t have to be ridiculously long, but neck length unstretched would be nice. So I guess I’ll be patiently (or not so patiently ) waiting.

hair.. Hair… HAIR!!!

This will officially be my first post!! I plan to blog about different things but for the most part I plan to discuss hair… Natural hair that is. I’ve recently become a natural transitioning for 4 months before my BC (big chop) July 19 09. To say I haven’t looked back would be a straight up and down LIE! I miss my doobies and the smell of my various hair polishers and oil sheens. Now don’t get it twisted folks, my hair was healthy and thick permed, but man I was bored. I was so jealous of the girls I saw with full heads of thick, curly, kinky, luscious wonderfulness. I would stalk natural blogs and drool over fotki albums. I’d imagine myself with different hair types (that’s right ALL of them I don’t discriminate I think its all GAWGEOUS) and how I’d style and rock it. Even though I loved my permed hair I knew I was stunting the potential for it to be so much more. Plus I was tired of waiting outside 6:30 am (you read right dammit it wasn’t a game it was that serious!) just to sign “the list” so I wouldn’t be in there for 40 hours on a Saturday (ladies who hail from essex county know the pain I speak of ). I was tired of running from the rain, limiting my workout sessions, and the burns scabs that came with the crack. So I decided it was time to try something different. I had looked the same for so long.. why not just go for it?!? It wasn’t the say all to end all or however the saying goes. If I wanted I could easily perm it again. Now that I’m five months down the road to hair crack recovery, I think it’s safe to say I’ve found a new addiction: Natural Hair!!!!! Through this blog I’ll share with you the ups and downs of my journey and hopefully I’ll be featuring you all too so we can share with each other! Like I said before I’ll discuss other things in addition to hair so don’t be surprised when my posts aren’t hair-related. So whether you’re natural, considering it, or you’re just interested welcome and I hope you enjoy!